Tuesday, December 22, 2009

My Life

Okay so it’s been awhile and I did not complete my days of thankful, that I had set for myself. But, hey I have been busy, with life and such. I have for the month of December done what I am calling a daily December journal. I have done this to record the month of December 2009 for me and my family. I am actually pretty caught up with it and I love looking at it everyday and seeing all that we have done together or remembering something little that CarLee has done or said. I am truly blessed with so much.

I have a husband who deserves so much better from me. I feel like sometimes he just gets the parts that have already been squeezed or pulled at. Yet, he still keeps me. That is my daily blessing that he still loves me after 10 years of cruddy moods and the fact that the b*tch jean runs thru my body and that it is pretty dominant. He deserves so much better than that. He is a good man and he does what he has to, to provide for his family, to be a good person, and the thing is; that is who he is.

I have a daughter who at three is such her own person already. I can not believe I love something as much as I love her. She amazes me daily. She is beautiful and funny and so full of life. She loves everyone, she loves my little ponies and she loves church. Her smile brightens the room when she is in it. I also hate to admit that when she is a bad mood its like she is possessed. (She gets that from my sister.) I love her imagination and I love it when she crawls in my lap and says, “Mommy I Wove you….” Those moments take my breath away.

In 2010 I want to learn not to stress so much about the stuff that I can not change. I just want to enjoy this man and my daughter. I want them to know everyday how much I love them. I want them to know they are my reason for living and trying and for all that I am. I know who I am and I still have a good sense of self but the two of them bring so much more to who I was, who I am and who I will end up being. How can they not?

Things to remember in the New Year:
1.) Never regret anything that made you smile
2.) Life is not about the number of breaths you take, but the number of breaths that take your breath away.
3.) God walks with me daily and with him and faith anything is possible.
4.) Appreciate the little things
5.) To stay positive

Well that’s it and I really want to try and stay caught up with the blog more so this year. So we will see how that goes.

Thursday, November 19, 2009


Today I am thankful for my family. The family I was born into, the family I married into and the one that opened its arms to me when I felt like I was alone.

I have to say that I always wanted a HUGE family and now I have a HUGE HUGE family. My tiny family is me and lee and CarLee. Then there is another layer and then another layer and some more family and I am thankful for every person that makes up my family. I feel truly blessed tonight. I had dinner with my mother in law and my brother in law and aunt Pam and Kristen tonight (plus lee and CarLee) I guess that has me feeling sentimental. Cale turned 11 today. First I will straight up admit I forgot his birthday. I feel like such a heal (actually alot worse). It was so nice to have dinner and talk and be with everyone. I really also can not believe that he is 11 already. It seems like yesterday is was barely walking. So on the way home I think i got a little emotional. I have so many good people in my life. I have such an awesome family and feel really blessed. I can talk to my mom about anything, i have a sister that if I yelled loud enough she would be there. After years of not having a relationship with my real dad we are doing really good. I LOVE my in-laws and truly enjoy spending time with them. Jay is funny and Cheryl is tons of fun. Cale is Cale which is just perfect. My nanny is getting to spend time with my daughter (okay and she is like my favorite person). I have aunts and uncles that will and have been there for me. Cousins that I might not talk to that often but I know without a doubt we would all go to the mat for each other. Then there is Tony and this whole other family that so taught me so much more about love and what it means to be a family. They opened the hearts to me and accepted me for no other reason than I was me. I am thankful that my daughter will know all of these people as her family. She is so lucky to get a chance to love and be loved by them all. I am a little sad about some of the family that has gone on to heaven without her knowing them... but hey the way I look at it... She has some really AWESOME guardian angels looking out for her.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Thankful for this

This is my little princess at her scrapbook/art table. She thinks she is hot stuff now. Yes, she is also dressed up like sleeping beauty. She had to do it, she told me, "Mommy I HAAVE to dress up like sleeping beauty!" Who could not be thankful for this? She is so beautiful and gets joy out of telling me exactly what she is doing and why she is doing it that way. She also takes pleasure in making me color with her. I color in the lines. She is working on that, but insist on helping me. Which makes my hard work to color in the lines point less! But she really does things she is"HELPING" me.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Thankful day 2

I am very thankful that I have the chance to be a mother to CarLee. I wanted a baby so bad and Lee wanted to wait. This went on for like four years. Then finally everything came together and we got pregnant. I am so thankful for the waiting because I got CarLee. She is the perfect little girl for me and Lee. I look at her sometimes and I am completely taken aback by how much of her daddy she has in her. I am sometime caught of guard by the parts of me she has. Yet I can honestly say CarLee is totally her own person. She is so independent and has such personality. We have friends that have a little boy named Hunter (he is like12 now). When he was little he had so much personality, that when i was pregnant I would rub my belly and say I hope she has personality like Hunter. I so got what I wished for. She has never been a docile child. She is stubborn and hard headed and does things her way in her time frame. Potty training was a complete nightmare.. it took forever. Yet for a child who was addicted to the pacifier (had to suck one and hold one in her hand to sleep) breaking her of that took only two days.
I am thankful that God sent me this little angel. That he is letting me be her mother. It is the greatest feeling when she hugs me and says, "Mommy I LOVE you."
I am thankful for everyday that I get to be her mommy.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Thankful Day 1

I wanted to let everyone know that I was thankful for my daughters imagination. I am sitting in the Computer/Scrapbook room listening to her. 1.) I am so trying not to laugh (because its Funny) 2.) Trying not to cry because one day I know she won't use it as much or it might not entertain her the way it is right not.
For example I bought her this puzzle mat from the dollar tree, it was a dollar and has only 9 pieces. Yet, the puzzle is having a conversation with itself. (the characters are mickey mouse clubhouse). Then I hear her put a piece of change in her piggy bank.. and she yells score.. Like she was shooting hoops. I had no clue she even knew what score was. I guess maybe its bad to ease drop on your child. Well, forgive me I can not help it. It's the bright spot of my day. I hope this imagination makes up for her not having a brother or sister to play with. She keeps herself amused and when I catch a secret glimpse into her world it makes mine a whole lot happier.

So here it is..my goal is to at least 10 days this month to write about something that I am thankful for.. I hope to do it more.. but honestly I do not want to feel let down if I can't do it more than that. So I settled on a goal of 10 times.

Friday, October 30, 2009

The PaST

You can clutch the past so tightly to your chest that it leaves your arms too full to embrace the present..--- Would you keep a chive on your tooth just because you enjoyed last night's potato? -

A friend of mine posted that on her facebook and well it struck a cord with me. I know a few people who hold onto the past so tightly that I do not believe that they ever really live in the present. The sad thing is the past was not so good to these people.

The past for me is bitter sweet. I have some really good memories and some not so good. I did not have what you would call a normal childhood. I did not really have a sane childhood. The thing is some of that was out of my control and some of it resulted from choices I made. I have always been older than my age. So I have to take credit for decisions I made even if most people would think I was to young. I probably was to young. Yet, I think I still new right from wrong on most of those choices.

I think about my past a lot now due to having my own child. I never want to lie to her and yet I really do not think I should tell her everything. I do wish sometimes that I had been different, then I look around at where I am at. How can I regret the past when it brought me to my present? I know that God had a plan for me. I can honestly say that I do not know how I survived. I walked the streets late at night and well giving the state of the world today.... I really do not know how I did not end up a statistic. Yet, all those choices brought me to lee.. whom I love and he makes me wanna be better. I have CarLee and she is my dream come true.
There are things I could mention, Like Tony, like not having a relationship with my dad, but now he is a good Pa to CarLee. I also have the most wonderful in-laws in the world, in the beginning i was so nervous but now know that my father in-law would put his life in front of his family, my mother in-law is the person who would do anything for ANYONE. I have this rocky relationship with my mom, but she is my mom and in my heart when things are bad she is still the one I turn too. I had once drifted away from my family but now I know how important they are. I do not know what I would do if my Nanny was not around for me to talk to. I look to my Aunt Donna for strength. I also have some really good friends.

So I guess my point being is the past is the past, its good, its bad..you can remember it, but let it go hold right now to your heart.
You make the choices that lead you to where you are, if you do not like only you can fix it.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Somer Rene Thompson

Somer Rene Thompson

We had a child go missing in Orange Park, on Monday. Today they found a body they believe to be her. She was 7 years old. How can anyone harm a child? I feel bad and want to cry just from getting onto mine. I can not fathom the pain and loss that this little girls parents/family are feeling. My dad lives pretty close to where this happened. I used to ride my bike and walk all over the place around where this little girl went missing. Home before dark was the rule. CarLee will never know that rule. I will never let her know that rule. Yet, that rule defined so much of my own childhood. I really can not even imagine letting her walk down to check our mailbox. I know that times have changed, but how do I give her freedom and still keep a watchful no never mind a constant eye on her.

As a parent I want to protect her without scaring her. We went to Publix yesterday and someone was passing out flyers of this missing little girl and CarLee asked, "Mommy is that me?" I was like thank God its not you baby.

Sunday, October 11, 2009

It's been a pretty okay week. I have decided half my problem is trying to figure out what I am going to do about a job. I am not really wanting to go back to school, but it might be the only way to a little job security. I hate being unsure of anything and right now I am unsure of so much. I had good day yesterday with my girl kid. here are some pictures. its been a pretty good weekend. now tomorrow I will go to work and prob have NOTHING to do, but I will survive. We made it to church today which is always a good thing and we are better for making it there.

Sunday, October 4, 2009


THis is what i made this weekend CARDS.


I think alot of things are changing in my life right now, or maybe its me that is changing. In the last two weeks I have noticed alot of changes. I for one do not like change. I think it comes from nothing ever staying constant in my childhood. There was alot of changes all the time. I think this is where my fear of change comes from. Since I have lived away from home, I have moved once. Lee and I moved into a duplex, then a couple of years later we moved to the other side, and then we bought our house (like 1 mile from the duplex). I have had 2 jobs (not counting part-time jobs for extra money. I worked at blue cross for 7 years and have worked at wachovia for 7 years. This job at wachovia is coming to an end soon. (Some time in 2010). I found that out over the last 2 weeks. I am also noticing some of my friendships changing. Not one but some and honestly I don't have a lot of "REAL" friends. It's not that we have had disagreements or anything like that. It's just small changes over a period of time. It has honestly left me wondering if I am the person changing, if it's just where we are all at in our lives that is changing. I am not sure how to handle any of this. I also notice that maybe things that seemed really important before might not be so important now. I KNOW that since CarLee I have changed and honestly I know that I have my moods. I have had the same friends for the last 10 years (some longer and one newer than that). When i say Friends I honestly mean sisters of my heart. Not just people I hang with on occasion, it's the girls who would jump out of bed at 2am and come sit with me because I might or might not be having a melt down. I don't really know what's going on with me. It's probably too much right now to be making much sense. I am just wondering if at 30 I might be going thru a growing phase or something like that. I am not sure, I am going to be examing that over the next few days. I just really do not like it when things seem to start moving around and changing their position in my life. I am really trying to let go and let GOD right now.

Thursday, October 1, 2009


This is CarLee when we got home today, Having a snack and saying CHEESE, with cheese.
Well it is Thursday and I am very happy about that. It means tomorrow is Friday. (How many of you really needed to be reminded of that?) I am so ready for the weekend. I am going to hang out with Nikki and a bunch of other really cool women. I am going to be trying something new this weekend. Instead of scrapbooking, I am going to attempt card making. I am going to make some Halloween cards and some Christmas cards. I want them to turn out really cool but we shall see. I just want to do something that will make me feel creative, accomplished and like I did a lot.

CarLee will be going home with her Papa Tony tomorrow. She is still sleeping with her unicorn costume. She is such a crazy CarLee. I love her and all that she is. She puts on her costume and runs around yelling, “Giddy Up, Cowboy Unicorn!” It is actually very amusing.

I am also putting out flyers for the next couple of months for doing family sessions, for $50.00. I hope that gets me some more business and some really good word of mouth. Plus I would really like something different. So I am suggesting I follow people to the pumpkin patch to go pick out their Christmas tree or come over while they decorate their tree. I hope this works. I just love taking pictures and trying to capture a moment, that might not get captured any other way.

Other than the above nothing else is happing at the Minyard house. My Nanny seems to be doing okay, enjoying the semi-fall like weather. (It’s been getting down to the 50’s at night and high 70’s in the day.) Daddy came over last night and watched me and the Girl Kid color. Lee worked for his dad last night. It also seems that he will be working all weekend too and next weekend. He works all the time. I am trying to do what I can to make his life easier. I honestly believe sometimes I make it harder. I am seriously working on that. He deserves for things to be a little bit easier on him. I really hope he gets the galaxy fixed.

I do not know if I will post anything over the weekend. I am super excited about seeing all my scrapbooking friends. They are all super talented and some are just a riot.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

middle of the week ramblings

Again it’s been a while since I have posted. I am so easily distracted. We have a lot of changes going on in our household lately. CarLee has been going thru a lot of changes. We have finally conquered the potty training thing. That was such a trying time for us. Then last Sunday we threw out the pacifiers. I am so proud of how she has handled giving up something that was so important to her. She has done wonderful. She continues to amaze me everyday. She is doing very well in school. I pick her up and they are always saying, “Another great day Mom.” It’s so nice to here and to know that she is really enjoying it too. She shows me her papers and tells me, “I made this.” Her teachers are wonderful also.

We still go by and see Ms. B. She loves her Ms. B. She will ask to call her and then she will ask to go see her. It’s still hard for me a little bit, knowing how much she misses her. I know CarLee likes school and is doing well in school, yet I also know no one will ever take Ms. B’s place. I hate that they are separated. I will always make sure that they get their time together or do the best I can about that. I want CarLee to know she will always have Ms. B.

In another part of my life, I have been told that my job will be gone by the end of 2010. I knew this was coming, and yet it’s still hard to deal with. It is time to make some decisions and figure out what I am going to do. I actually met with a school counselor to see if I could gain some direction. I feel very intimidated at the very thought of going back to school. I know that I can do it. I don’t know if I really want to do it. The other thing being that I have CarLee now and I don’t really want to give up my time with her. I know that going back to school will benefit us as a family. Yet, it’s going to mean a lot of sacrifices for all of us.

I know that no matter what that I have a good husband who will support me and do whatever he can to make things easier for me. He is a good man and I should tell him that more. He deserves so much better from me. Lee does whatever it takes to make us smile and whatever it takes to take care of his family. I do not know what I would do without him.

THis is CarLee's halloween costume. I wanted her to be a fairy princess. I lost.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

It's Been A While

Well its been awhile since I have posted. So much has been going on. I went on a scrapbooking retreat and I had tons of fun (sort of). We finally broke CarLee of the pacifier. This went so easy it was actually mind boggoling. The was seriously addicted to those things, most of the time she had to have 2 at one time. I think this is making up for the horrible time we had potty training her. She is doing Wonderful at school. Really really REally good.

Well today is the day I find out about my job. Rather I have one or not. I will try to post more later. I will also try to better about keeping this updated! It's just been a rough couple of weeks.

Friday, September 4, 2009

sorry its been awhile

This one is one of my favorites. (up)

well I did not realize it had been a while since i last posted. I guess when life gets busy or hectic or I get lazy this is what goes to the bottom of that to do list. sorry. Hopefully i can post more later. but for now here are some picks from last weeks trip to disney. we were only there for 1day.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

God Made CarLee

This is from CarLee's Sunday School class from 2008-2009. She moved up last Sunday. I see this and am glad that CarLee loves church. It also makes me very thankful for all of those people at my church who love and help take care of CarLee. She was there for the one year old class and those Teachers the Stika's who where CarLee's first experience with church. I believe they helped her grow to love it the way she does. Ms Jeni and Mr Herb for all those Wed nights and CarLee being so excited she could not eat. To the Perkin's who this past year helped her get ready to move on to where she is now. These are all people who have helped my daughter to know God and Jesus Christ and gave and give their time to her. There are others who give their time also and to them I am grateful too. I am sorry if this all sounds a little mushy, but I was trying to organize CarLee's papers (I seem to be keeping everything) and this piece of paper and what it means and symbolizes really got to me. I am blessed with a beautiful and healthy (had her physical today. 40 and 1/2 inches and 36.4 pounds) daughter. I am so thankful but wanted those at church to know that I appreciate all that you have given to my daughter.

Monday, August 24, 2009

the moment

The Moment

Okay so today I am going to talk about remember to seize the moment. Yesterday CarLee wanted to go swimming. So, Lee pulled out the blow-up pool that we have had in the attic for about 2 years. He set it up and CarLee began to play. I watched for a while and took a few or 20 pictures. Then I was like, “WHATEVER”. I got off of my butt and climbed into that tiny pool with her. I just remember thinking I am so never going to get this time back. We shared the tiny pool and played catch with a little blow up ball, made waves and splashed each other. Then of course she said, “I will be right back” and got out of the pool. I sat and waited and she never came back out. I must have looked like a dork, but it’s was a small price to pay for those few minutes with my little girl.

Someone told me today not to be sad because she was growing up, but just take a breath and look at the person I had a hand in creating. I really want to do that. CarLee is her own person. I see a little bit of other people in her but for the most part she is all her own person, she is CarLee BarLee as she calls herself. I want to take more time to seize these moments. One day she will be off doing her own thing, but for right now she is pretty happy to hang out with her Mommy and Daddy. I think she may actually like us right now too. How about that?

So let me tell a story. Lee brought home a very tiny kitten on Thursday night, and CarLee fell in love with it. I did not want a kitten (really I did not want or need anything else to take care of). Friday night we went over to celebrate my friend Lisa’s birthday. We had a good time. Then once we got home the kitten would not stop meowing. CarLee would not leave the kitten alone. She had to hold it, let it go, the kitten would hide, CarLee would freak out, and then make me find the kitten. This went on and finally I called me and said do something before I go slap crazy. Lee came home and took the kitten to his brothers. So, yesterday Sunday after Church I took her to pet smart and got her a fish. This morning she called me at work (pretty sure Lee dialed the number) to tell me her fish was doing tricks, it was swimming upside down. So on the way home from work today I will do the timeless mother trick and replace the fish before she gets home.
It’s good to me, not so good to be CarLee’s gold fish. I am pretty sure she stuck her hand in the fish tank at some point. I will try to stress to her that she can not do that.

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

i dont post for a while then i go overboard

“When the alarm goes off at 6:30, I pop out of bed, excited about my day”.
This is a line from the movie Julie and Julia, which I have not seen. I want to feel that way! I want to be excited about what the day holds and I want to be that excited to get up every morning. At this point in time I am not feeling that way. I am also not sure how to get there either. Does anyone have ideas? I will take ideas and suggestions, I will even take a to do list. I have a good life and I know that will my whole heart. God has truly blessed me in so many ways. I need to find a way to get to that point where I am excited about my day. So that is a new goal I have. I am going to strive to reach it.

A Special Moment

This is my Nanny. She is awesome and well last Tuesday she had a special moment, that she says left her feeling more at peace than she has ever felt. As she put it in simple terms her and GOD had them an old fashioned pow-wow. Well this past Sunday she got up at her church and gave her testimony. She called me yesterday to tell me that this upcoming Saturday August 22, 2009 she was going to be re-baptized. She explained she really wanted me there and that this would mean so much to her. I got very emotional. She has had a life that no one could ever imagine and I believe her faith got her thru all of it. I could not be more happy for her or more proud of her. This is going to be a big day and I so can not wait to share in it. I love this woman very much. I can not wait to show CarLee pictures from Saturday and share the story of her Nanny washing away the old and coming up a new person. Its a very big day so if you are reading this on Saturday August 22, 2009 at around 3pm send up a prayer and a thank you for all blessings in my Nanny's Honor.

Wonder Woman can Bite Me

A new favorite blog of mine posted something that said Wonder Woman can Bite Me. (http://paperpiecing.typepad.com) It’s a great blog entry. It talks about how some women can do it all, but most of the rest of us can’t. I am one who can’t. My life is so imperfect that I can not imagine having a finished to do list and still knowing in my heart that I spent plenty of time (quality time, not the stop doing that, and do not touch that time) with my 3 year old daughter and knowing that I got one good conversation with my husband in that day. I just do not think that in my world all of that is possible. I have to pick and choose. My to do list has taken on a life of its own (I am debating that if I crumble it up and set it on fire, if it will count as being completed). My Girl Kid is 3 going on 13. This at times is so funny – she now says What-ever (which she got from me) and at times it will drive me slap crazy. I have hobbies that I love, and I mean dearly love and yet I am so far behind on them that I might never ever catch up on them. My house is dirty most of the time. Not filthy just usually has a layer of dust and I have never cleaned my base boards (ick and I have lived here 4 years now). Okay so I may check facebook about 4 times a day (that’s not addicted). I just do not know if I will ever be the lady whose house is cleaned, has an organized scraproom, and has plenty of time to spend with family and friends (I get their birthdays mixed up). But like that blog entry said, Wonder Woman can bite me. Who wants to be a member of that club anyways.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009


To choose joy over the fear and vulnerability of being different or weird or ridiculed is a tremendous act of courage - one that touches all of us.

I saw that on someone else's blog and it hit a nerve. If everyone stayed in their comfort zone or acted like everyone else, well the world would be boring. I have a brother in-law who is probably not considered normal, but he is to me, because to me he is just being himself. He does not care what others think he is just who he is. I find this brave. I am sure there are people who have to deal with others not accepting them all the time. It could be about looks, it could be about attitude or something totally different.

I hope I am open and accepting to whichever or whatever way my daughter goes, as long as she is being TRUE to herself. I want her to have courage to be whatever she wants to be. On the inside and the outside.

Saturday, August 8, 2009


Today I have no pictures to post. LEFT my camera at home. I was up by 6:30am and on my way to my Nanny's by 7:45am. We (me, my Nanny and the Girl Kid - new way of refering to CarLee) had an awesome day. AWESOME. I have not really enjoyed anything that much in a while. We went to breakfast at Shoney's. Then off to the flea market, where Nanny got some dishes (cause she needed more dishes like I need more scrapbook paper), I got a table - an antique, and a white wicker chair (for CarLee and as a photo prop) and well CarLee she got too much to name. next we went to hospice thrift store where again the 3 of us got stuff we really did not need. then Finally i got to stop at the one and only scrapbook store in Lake City. I have been trying to get there for 2 years. Here yup i got more scrapbook paper. Laugh if you want. Lastly we hit the hardee's drive thru for milkshakes. the perfect end to a perfect day. Gotta Love my time with my Nanny.. oh, and was home and in San Marco by 4:30 for a family photo session.

the reason I scrap

on friday night, i started going thru my older scrapbooks (the old creative memories ones)to determine how many page protectors i needed before you can not buy them anymore.and started with My daughters baby album and i went thru most of them.Let me tell you the first ones were but ugly okay well the ones until my daughters album (3 years ago)are plain and yucky. but I laughed and cried at my pages, my journaling, my pictures and my memories.my daughter would sit with me then get up ask questions and get up.I read my journaling over and over again in my wedding album (which my bf nikki actually made for me) friday was my anniversay 10 years - that says alot I am only 30. and my scrapbooks started with my husband. So i kinda relived the last 10 years and realized I have had a goodtime at it. some bad stuff, made new friends lost old ones said good bye to some loved ones and laughed alot.It kinda reminded me why I scrap. -- so i just wanted everyone to know that I scrap for a reason and that no matter what I say or how much i complain.. i love my crazy imperfect life.

Friday, August 7, 2009

August 7 2009

This is me and Lee. Today is our 10 year anniversary. So many people did not think we
would make it. Yet, here we are today. We did get married very young. I was 20 and he was 21. I can not even begin to tell you about our life together, because honestly in the last 10 years (14 if you count the time before marriage) there is not alot we have not been thru. He is my best friend and I would not want it any other way. I am truly blessed to have this man in my life. I know that he would do anything to get me to smile, when I just do not feel like it (he succeeds 99% of the time). I know without a doubt that when things are going bad, that I would rather be going thru it with him than to be any where else. I love knowing that when I roll over in the middle of the night that I can reach out with one hand and touch him. I wish I was a better wife, and that I could always give him the best of me. Sometimes he gets a little short changed because I give so much of myself in taking care of other people. If you know Lee you like him, he is funny (freakin hysterical), he is a little off the wall, he would do anything for anybody, and he is an awesome father. I really hope the next 10 years are just as wonderful. I know it sounds really corny but sometimes I can feel myself fall deeper in love with him. Those moments really do give me butterflies and take my breath away. I hope I have made him as happy as he has made me. I can not wait to see what the future holds for us.

CarLee's 1st WeEk at School

Just a quick update on school Monday was an okay day, Tuesday she did awesome, Wednesday was her worst day, and Thursday was awesome. Today is Friday so we will see how she does. I picture to go with such a small post.

This is my Beautiful Girl

Monday, August 3, 2009

LoOK wHaT WE madE for CarLee

Okay do you know what that is? We made a tent or canopy for CarLee's bed.
CarLee love tents, loves to make them and I know this will not stop that but hey I still thinks it's pretty cool and we totally made it ourselves. PVC Pipe, curtains, material and well honestly some mistakes and some cussing. We thought it would take a few minutes and it took a couple of hours. I had to break out the sewing machine.. I so want a new one bought from jo-anne's so I can get the classes that go along with using the dang thing. So she will have a surprise when she gets home from "Skool" as she called it this morning. Plus, I am baking her a cake. Back to the thing on her bed, both me and lee got in there and its pretty neat-o.....Its purple, pink & cam-o. I really hope she as excited about it as we were about finishing it. We sure did laugh hard at ourselves. Oh, I also made a curtain out of the leftovers.

1st DaY of PrE-ScHooL

Today is CarLee's first day of Pre-School. It was hard for me. I am not sure if it was hard for her. She knew last night she was going to school and this morning when she woke up she knew she was going to school. Then all of a sudden she wanted to go to school. She asked about her lunch box and kept saying she wanted to go. She also wanted to take her toothbrush but I talked her out of taking that with her. She was very excited to be there, until she realized that mommy and daddy were not staying. Her teacher then asked if she wanted to play then she forgot about us and went to play with the castle.
I left saying, she does not like to share, she is stubborn, she is hard headed and has potty issues.
Ms. Lisa looked at me like I have done this before...
We will see how the day went. I will post more on that after we pick her up.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

a sad day.

Yesterday was CarLee's last day with her Ms. "B". She will start school on Monday
Aug 3, 2009. It was hard she has been with Ms. Debbie since she was 8 weeks old.
I could never have wanted anyone else to take care of her. Ms. Debbie has loved
CarLee like she was hers and CarLee loves her "B". Yesterday was so hard, and
I am very scared how CarLee will adjust to her new school/environment. I know its
going to be very hard on Ms. B and CarLee and well this is not so easy for me. I knew
and know this Ms. Debbie would take awesome care of CarLee. She has for the last
3 and a half years. Putting CarLee in school is about me wanting her to have a head
start for school. I could be wrong about this. I hope that I am not. I am so grateful
for Ms Debbie, she has been there for CarLee and been there for me. Being a mom
has been easier because Ms. Debbie has been apart of our lives. I could never put
into words what she has meant to us. I know CarLee is going to miss seeing her
everyday, and so will I.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

It's been a week......

I know its been a week, but I went on a scrapbooking retreat this pass weekend. I had such a great time. But let me tell you I am just now catching up on not being so tired. We stay up late and barley sleep, the object of this is to get as much scrappin done. so here is what i got done.

I actually got more than this done, but you get the gist of it. I had fun, now I have to be a grown up and play catch up!