Tuesday, December 22, 2009

My Life

Okay so it’s been awhile and I did not complete my days of thankful, that I had set for myself. But, hey I have been busy, with life and such. I have for the month of December done what I am calling a daily December journal. I have done this to record the month of December 2009 for me and my family. I am actually pretty caught up with it and I love looking at it everyday and seeing all that we have done together or remembering something little that CarLee has done or said. I am truly blessed with so much.

I have a husband who deserves so much better from me. I feel like sometimes he just gets the parts that have already been squeezed or pulled at. Yet, he still keeps me. That is my daily blessing that he still loves me after 10 years of cruddy moods and the fact that the b*tch jean runs thru my body and that it is pretty dominant. He deserves so much better than that. He is a good man and he does what he has to, to provide for his family, to be a good person, and the thing is; that is who he is.

I have a daughter who at three is such her own person already. I can not believe I love something as much as I love her. She amazes me daily. She is beautiful and funny and so full of life. She loves everyone, she loves my little ponies and she loves church. Her smile brightens the room when she is in it. I also hate to admit that when she is a bad mood its like she is possessed. (She gets that from my sister.) I love her imagination and I love it when she crawls in my lap and says, “Mommy I Wove you….” Those moments take my breath away.

In 2010 I want to learn not to stress so much about the stuff that I can not change. I just want to enjoy this man and my daughter. I want them to know everyday how much I love them. I want them to know they are my reason for living and trying and for all that I am. I know who I am and I still have a good sense of self but the two of them bring so much more to who I was, who I am and who I will end up being. How can they not?

Things to remember in the New Year:
1.) Never regret anything that made you smile
2.) Life is not about the number of breaths you take, but the number of breaths that take your breath away.
3.) God walks with me daily and with him and faith anything is possible.
4.) Appreciate the little things
5.) To stay positive

Well that’s it and I really want to try and stay caught up with the blog more so this year. So we will see how that goes.