Tuesday, December 7, 2010
I have made new friends on Facebook and @ my new job. I would like to more deeply connect with my community at church but I would need to go in order to do that. I have not been going, and that laziness on my part. It seems to be the easiest thing to put to the side when life gets busy. I know it should not be like that but it is. In 2011 I am making a commitment to myself and my daughter to not put this at the bottom of the list.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Well the last thing i made as a center piece in a vase for christmas. I used just some floral stems from michael and tissue paper. For my first attempt it turned out pretty good.
I have a long list of stuff I want to make, and yeah I need to make time to make it.
***Spent the day with Lee today it was nice.***
Short post. No pic.
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Friday, December 3, 2010
Wednesday, December 1, 2010
Funny I just noticed the date I wrote this 2 months to the day before he passed away, leaving my life with this huge hole. I could go on and on about him. I think everyone should know I LOVED him despite who he was. I know all about the bad stuff but, the moments of good he gave were really good moments. One memory that sticks out, still makes me laugh out loud.
My mom and step dad AJ were opening up a shop (to work on cars) and there was this store that made hamburgers and fries. (Now it's known as the Mudville Grill where beach and Atlantic meet,back then it was a pharmacy/store/soda bar.) Well we all ordered these burgers and sat down to eat. I dropped mine on the ground, I was trying to put ketchup on it. The hamburger patty hit the dirtiest ground ever. He moved so fast, snatched it up off the ground and switched it out with AJ's friends Rob's hamburger. That was funny, but what made it worse was this guy just kept going on about how great the burger was. He went on and on and on... and really this floor was covered in grease, dirt, you name it had been on that floor. I was like 13 at the time and this was freaking hysterical to me and Lisa. Its 10:21 pm (12/01/2010) and I am smiling remembering this.
Another time was and this memory is so bittersweet to me. It was probably the last real conversation I ever had with him. See after this night he was on the ventilator and then the trek and I never heard his real voice again. He had to go to the emergency room, so me, Lee and Lisa followed the ambulance up there. Renee usually handled this, but she was fighting with David (and well honestly none of us thought anything was wrong, not even Daddy). Let's clear something up, David is Mexican. Daddy did not have anything against Mexicans, just David. He pretty much hated David. (oh, David being Renee's boyfriend then, husband now and Renee being my older step-sister.) So we are in the little areas @baptist er, Daddy in the bed, oxygen tank, me, Lee and Lisa and Daddy starts running his mouth. Okay he is talking about how Renee cant be there because she has to help David find his donkey. Let me tell you he went on and on, in walks a short cute doctor. Daddy starts saying (in front of the doctor) "why couldn't your sister fall in love with this guy? Oh no she has to go fall in love with some Mexican who cant even remember where he parked his donkey. This guy is cute and he has to be rich." Okay so I am trying to be the grown up, but laughing anyways lee and Lisa are laughing, and daddy just keeps going. He really did not like David. You may not find that funny, but i can still see him sitting in that bed flapping his arms and ranting and raving about David. The whole ER got a play by play and way to much info. Like I said I LOVED him despite who he was.
I can also remember the moment I knew and realized he loved me as if I were his. I mean I always knew it, but that picture at the top of this post, that day he looked at me with tears in his eyes and told me that I was beautiful and that he loved me more than he could ever say. It is truly the moment I knew that I did not have to have his blood or his last name for him to love me or for me to be his.
He is still with me, some days I think I feel his whiskers like I did when I kissed him good night or good bye. I still miss him so much it hurts. CarLee would be so stinking rotten way more than she is. He would have made her into a living nightmare for me. I know he is watching out for her. I know he has his hand on Lisa. I thought it would get better with time, I was so lost without him. See people did not know that i would sneak off to see him, on lunch break, after school, after work, and we would talk and talk and talk. I don't think of him everyday, but when I do think of him it can be crippling knowing what he's missed.
Once I asked him how I would know if Lee loved me in the forever kind of way. He actually told me, you don't have to know because I do.
I wish he could have seen Lisa dressed for her Proms, seen her get both her high school and college diplomas, buy her first house, and be here if she ever settles down. She was the apple of his eye. What he did right.
So December 2, is not a day that I dred or look forward too. It would have been his birthday. He would be so old tomorrow. like 77 or is it 78? Who knows he no longer ages.
I want to take time today to say Happy Birthday to the most amazing Mother in Love.
She truly has the biggest heart and would do anything for anyone! She is also alot of fun and some of my best nights have been with her. Seeing Garth Brooks, meeting Billy Currington, seeing Keith Urban and Gary Allen. She has done so much and is truly one of those women who know how live life to the fullest. Her stories are amazing and funny. Yet she ALWAYS manages to be there whenever anyone needs her. She would go out of her way for anyone and she has (even those who never appreciate it!) She loves me constantly even when I am a witch (4th of July parade this year, sorry about that.) She wants everyone to know just how special they are, and goes out of her way to prove it to them. She loves unconditionally and truly. So today let's celebrate this NASCAR lovin, Country Music Listenen, Gone With the Wind collector, Mother, Sister, Friend, Aunt, Granny, former Bad A*S, no longer an all night partyer, and amazing women. My life is better because she is in it. Thanks for all you do and for always being you! I love you. I hope the next 50 years are as much fun as the first 50. I can not wait to see how your number one customizes the first wheel chair (just kidding we are a long way from there!)
Monday, September 13, 2010
This post is for me sort of like maybe a contract to myself. I have had my band empty since the beginning of summer, and my gall bladder removed. I have gained back almost all of my weight that I had lost. I am saying today is my new beginning. I need to get healthy and lose this weight. I want to have more energy more than anything right now.
I go see my band doctor today at 10:15. I am going to try and give up sweet tea. I just have to find something better to drink. That I like. I am not a big fan of the crystal light packets they have a funny after taste. I am unable to drink diet soda. So anyone have any ideas?? It’s also time to stop living on fast food (which is what I have done since starting a new job). I am shooting for High protein, low carb.
If anyone has any ideas or suggestions or anything please feel free to let me know. I have no excuses any more.
Love to you all.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
I am super excited my oldest friend (that makes her sound old. it should be longest friendship but, that sounds weird) Lisa's little girl is turning 1! Lisa is also allowing me the honor of taking Claire's year old pictures. So, well I might be going over board. I am making a black n pink tutu and making her a cake to get into! I am so lucky to be apart of this. Yippee.. I am taking CarLee with me on Saturday to do the pictures. I think its going to be a very interesting morning. Oh, and I think I might make a matching #1 for her to hold if i can find some cool paper.
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
SHe is giving away alot of Goodies from Toy Story, all about Jesse is what I am calling it.
CarLee loves Jesse.. so I am really trying to win this doll for her. (and me. Cause I love Jesse too.)
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Monday, June 14, 2010
My baby under water.
She looks scared to death, but she did really well.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Thursday, June 3, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
so I raked the yard about 2 months ago. I left my shoes on the back porch. Well moved them onto the grill so they would not get wet, when it rained. Well a couple of weeks ago we noticed a bird building a nest in them. I left them there, cause well obviously she needed the shoes. Well tonight I caught here feeding the babies. I should be embarrassed, but I am not.
We have been doing some re-arranging and changing up at the minyard House. Its alot of fun and alot of work. I am really enjoying my time off of work, but knows the time will end all too soon. I feel like for the first time I am turning my house into somthing I have always wanted!
Monday, May 24, 2010
Sunday, May 23, 2010
Saturday, May 22, 2010
The fried oreos.
Okay they were so good. I could only eat 1 and 1/2 but oh, my.
okay so Lee wanted a family day. Me, him and CarLee. He wanted to go see this truck so I could take a picture of it. It was a truck on a lift that had been forgotten about. I was like okay. I then got online to see if something was going on around it, on the way to it, past it. The was the Bostwick Blueberry Festival. I had no clue there was even a town called Bostwick. There is and it has an annual blueberry festival. It was nothing huge, had some nice vendors, and good food. CarLee also liked the live music. We had a good time there. We did this before going to find this truck and something about a huge black chicken. Lee really wanted to see this truck and then he started talking about a huge black chicken. more on that later.