Thursday, November 19, 2009


Today I am thankful for my family. The family I was born into, the family I married into and the one that opened its arms to me when I felt like I was alone.

I have to say that I always wanted a HUGE family and now I have a HUGE HUGE family. My tiny family is me and lee and CarLee. Then there is another layer and then another layer and some more family and I am thankful for every person that makes up my family. I feel truly blessed tonight. I had dinner with my mother in law and my brother in law and aunt Pam and Kristen tonight (plus lee and CarLee) I guess that has me feeling sentimental. Cale turned 11 today. First I will straight up admit I forgot his birthday. I feel like such a heal (actually alot worse). It was so nice to have dinner and talk and be with everyone. I really also can not believe that he is 11 already. It seems like yesterday is was barely walking. So on the way home I think i got a little emotional. I have so many good people in my life. I have such an awesome family and feel really blessed. I can talk to my mom about anything, i have a sister that if I yelled loud enough she would be there. After years of not having a relationship with my real dad we are doing really good. I LOVE my in-laws and truly enjoy spending time with them. Jay is funny and Cheryl is tons of fun. Cale is Cale which is just perfect. My nanny is getting to spend time with my daughter (okay and she is like my favorite person). I have aunts and uncles that will and have been there for me. Cousins that I might not talk to that often but I know without a doubt we would all go to the mat for each other. Then there is Tony and this whole other family that so taught me so much more about love and what it means to be a family. They opened the hearts to me and accepted me for no other reason than I was me. I am thankful that my daughter will know all of these people as her family. She is so lucky to get a chance to love and be loved by them all. I am a little sad about some of the family that has gone on to heaven without her knowing them... but hey the way I look at it... She has some really AWESOME guardian angels looking out for her.

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Thankful for this

This is my little princess at her scrapbook/art table. She thinks she is hot stuff now. Yes, she is also dressed up like sleeping beauty. She had to do it, she told me, "Mommy I HAAVE to dress up like sleeping beauty!" Who could not be thankful for this? She is so beautiful and gets joy out of telling me exactly what she is doing and why she is doing it that way. She also takes pleasure in making me color with her. I color in the lines. She is working on that, but insist on helping me. Which makes my hard work to color in the lines point less! But she really does things she is"HELPING" me.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Thankful day 2

I am very thankful that I have the chance to be a mother to CarLee. I wanted a baby so bad and Lee wanted to wait. This went on for like four years. Then finally everything came together and we got pregnant. I am so thankful for the waiting because I got CarLee. She is the perfect little girl for me and Lee. I look at her sometimes and I am completely taken aback by how much of her daddy she has in her. I am sometime caught of guard by the parts of me she has. Yet I can honestly say CarLee is totally her own person. She is so independent and has such personality. We have friends that have a little boy named Hunter (he is like12 now). When he was little he had so much personality, that when i was pregnant I would rub my belly and say I hope she has personality like Hunter. I so got what I wished for. She has never been a docile child. She is stubborn and hard headed and does things her way in her time frame. Potty training was a complete nightmare.. it took forever. Yet for a child who was addicted to the pacifier (had to suck one and hold one in her hand to sleep) breaking her of that took only two days.
I am thankful that God sent me this little angel. That he is letting me be her mother. It is the greatest feeling when she hugs me and says, "Mommy I LOVE you."
I am thankful for everyday that I get to be her mommy.

Monday, November 9, 2009

Thankful Day 1

I wanted to let everyone know that I was thankful for my daughters imagination. I am sitting in the Computer/Scrapbook room listening to her. 1.) I am so trying not to laugh (because its Funny) 2.) Trying not to cry because one day I know she won't use it as much or it might not entertain her the way it is right not.
For example I bought her this puzzle mat from the dollar tree, it was a dollar and has only 9 pieces. Yet, the puzzle is having a conversation with itself. (the characters are mickey mouse clubhouse). Then I hear her put a piece of change in her piggy bank.. and she yells score.. Like she was shooting hoops. I had no clue she even knew what score was. I guess maybe its bad to ease drop on your child. Well, forgive me I can not help it. It's the bright spot of my day. I hope this imagination makes up for her not having a brother or sister to play with. She keeps herself amused and when I catch a secret glimpse into her world it makes mine a whole lot happier.

So here it goal is to at least 10 days this month to write about something that I am thankful for.. I hope to do it more.. but honestly I do not want to feel let down if I can't do it more than that. So I settled on a goal of 10 times.