Wednesday, September 30, 2009

middle of the week ramblings

Again it’s been a while since I have posted. I am so easily distracted. We have a lot of changes going on in our household lately. CarLee has been going thru a lot of changes. We have finally conquered the potty training thing. That was such a trying time for us. Then last Sunday we threw out the pacifiers. I am so proud of how she has handled giving up something that was so important to her. She has done wonderful. She continues to amaze me everyday. She is doing very well in school. I pick her up and they are always saying, “Another great day Mom.” It’s so nice to here and to know that she is really enjoying it too. She shows me her papers and tells me, “I made this.” Her teachers are wonderful also.

We still go by and see Ms. B. She loves her Ms. B. She will ask to call her and then she will ask to go see her. It’s still hard for me a little bit, knowing how much she misses her. I know CarLee likes school and is doing well in school, yet I also know no one will ever take Ms. B’s place. I hate that they are separated. I will always make sure that they get their time together or do the best I can about that. I want CarLee to know she will always have Ms. B.

In another part of my life, I have been told that my job will be gone by the end of 2010. I knew this was coming, and yet it’s still hard to deal with. It is time to make some decisions and figure out what I am going to do. I actually met with a school counselor to see if I could gain some direction. I feel very intimidated at the very thought of going back to school. I know that I can do it. I don’t know if I really want to do it. The other thing being that I have CarLee now and I don’t really want to give up my time with her. I know that going back to school will benefit us as a family. Yet, it’s going to mean a lot of sacrifices for all of us.

I know that no matter what that I have a good husband who will support me and do whatever he can to make things easier for me. He is a good man and I should tell him that more. He deserves so much better from me. Lee does whatever it takes to make us smile and whatever it takes to take care of his family. I do not know what I would do without him.

THis is CarLee's halloween costume. I wanted her to be a fairy princess. I lost.

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